So I lit up, crashed, and cracked.

Now I sit here and wonder, if it was even worth it. I was fine on my own, in my shell, in the dark. I was fine, all alone. I lived my life, my way and on my terms. Then you came and showed me what it was to shine up. I told you I liked the darkness, but you dragged me into the sunlight. 

So I lit up.

You told me to open up and let it go, to not hold back and like a kid, I followed obediently. For I was your girl you said, your baby. You told me to listen to my heart when I was confused and I let it take over me completely. You told me that you'd never let me cry and so I let myself be vulnerable. Then you walked out and expected my heart to accept that with a gulp.

So I crashed.

I rise again, go on with my life, do my chores, dress myself but as I walk out the house, the mirror is the one thing I don't look at. As I try and force down food which my body refuses to accept, I'm asked why I'm pale as a ghost. I smile. Everyday I put on a smile, and everyday it wears off. The echo of your words still hangs in the air and I try and imagine what you would say to me if you saw me right now. And then the brain that I was refusing to listen to all along gives me my answer, "I'm long gone. You're in denial. " I heard it and started to weep. I clung to my own limp skeleton and tried to comfort myself that you'd hold me in your arms again. But I couldn't lie to myself anymore.

So I cracked.

I know I'm supposed to be happy that I was out in the sunshine, even if for a little while but I would so rather have stayed in the dark. It was easier then for I was made of metal. But now I've been corroded by the showers of your once undying love. I can't be whole again for I didn't just give you a piece of me.. I gave you my soul. You were to keep it safe forever. I thought falling for you, head over heels, was the best risk I ever took.

But I lit up, crashed and cracked.

-Comes under FF, started by Kanika, which has been my motivation to write everyday.
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